( Presave by clicking the artwork )
In 2019, I began obsessively making house beats. Yeah, Chicago is in my blood like mustard on a frank, but what really brought me closer to house, was the moment I discovered that it was essentially created the same way sample-based rap is made, but stylistically way different. I went to work, and before that summer ended I had a 30 minute
burner of a set on my hands. I sent it to my distributor and it was released, but I quickly realized the master was distorted so I took it down. After 2 years of going through old sessions and finding original bounces I had emailed to friends to recover lost files, we're finally here. Some of it is still distorted too. Enjoy. click the shoe. <3 mathien
So (If I Can't Have Your Love)
Sam had made this beat in 2017 and played it for me during a session in Evanston. He was staying with his mom for a week and didn't have anything but a guitar and his laptop when he made it, so the entire beat was dozens of layers of nylon strings over a drum machine loop. Even in its early sketches it was so good, I told him I wanted it but it seemed like he was writing to it. Fast forward to this September he stopped by my studio to record some ideas, and he ended up playing the beat for me again, it was exactly the same, "I've been stuck on this beat for years now" he said.
After he left I wrote "If I can't have your love" to it and sent him a demo of it that night, and he called me freaking out (happy). The next day he came back at 6:30 am to help finish it. we decided Sam would sing the first verse and I would do the second, but we're both on all 3 of the hooks. Then he played his Sax on it. I wrote a little instrumental bridge section to break up the loop a little, and added some additional synth and guitar/bass... I figured I'd send it over to Brooklyn so Devon Yesberger (Lohaith, Caleb Hawley, Grace Kelly) could play piano on it. It came back and that piano part you hear that opens the track was actually at the end of what he sent but it was so striking I threw it on the front. Took 3 years but the track is finished.
The name "So" is a reference to Peter Gabriel, and a nod to all of the sophisto-pop of the late 80s that influenced this song.
Thanks for reading all of that,